29. JUST YOU

In this world, god has created His creation in pairs. First He created Adam, and then Eve, to accompany him in his journey in life.

I presumed, every individual need someone to talk to, be with, and a little special attention by someone. Some people have a lot of friends, but still you can't avoid feeling lonely or alone.

I feel the same way too. Although you have friends, you have a wife, kids or grands but you the feeling keep haunting you. I think about it a lot and try to figure out why.

Finally I came to realise, it is not really a quantity of friends that people need, it is quality friends that we are seeking for. Someone who always be by your side when you feel bad, and someone to share your joy when you're happy.

I don't about others. May be some of you, could just ignore the fact of this, and just be contented with what you think you have. But wait till you have nothing to offer to the world anymore, then you will realized that people around you, one by one will walk out on you. And finally you'll be alone again.

Join me, and let's become friends if you like. We can help each others.

28. A BLOODY DAMNED FRIEND

I dont know whether I could called him a friend, but i dont think so. I was told he was a brilliant person who would help in our project.

On that particular day, when he arrived, I put on a suit and took pain to get a pass to get inside the airport terminal. I considered him, a dignitary who came and should be treated as such the malaysian way.

But to my surprised when he arrived, he was in short pants. Well, i guess it was a new breed of intelligent people , so i just carried on with my sort of duty to greet and made him felt comfortable while he was in Malaysia. As he arrived, I was introduced to him, and after the immigration checkpoint, we were out of the terminal, and I volunteered to give him a lift to wherever he wanted to go. He said it was alright, he could find his way. I asked him which hotel, he would stay. He told me, he'll find one in central. He said he just didnt wish to interfere with us, two love birds, to be together.

Nevertheless, i sent him to KL Central and wish him a good stay in malaysia. Then, I and my girl went to Bangsar to get a snack. She looked restless, i thought she might be tired, then finally I sent her to her apartment. Again to my surprised, the man was there, opened the door. I found it a little odd, but then I just kept quiet, didn't wish to think of anything bad.

The project went on, and I got them a hostel to stay within the vicinity of their workplace.

Before the project started, I asked the prison to give them each a souviner, and I remember i gave the girls caftan, and the man a shirt. The next morning, I saw him wearing the caftan that i gave to my girl, the green caftan. It was small on him because it wasn't his size.

While the project went on, i saw my girl always with him, sitting together in the dining, sat together in the bus, and even when i called her, she was in his room. Although i felt bad about it, i just kept my cool, because i loved her so much, and didn't even want to think bad about her.

Later, my friends told me, about him and my girlfriend and they told me, just take care and be wise, I guess when you're in love, you could see nothing except the good side.

I guess they were right, from another woman, i was told that they were having an affair. I felt so bad, and my heart felt like stopping.

My problem now is I just could not forget all the incidences and the lies she put up to me, it haunted me like mad. I dont know when it's going to end, because i know i'm not the person in her life.

ARANCK