WHAT DO I NEED

Every man who live in this earth have dreams to run after in life. Some wish to be rich, and some wish to be famous, others might want to have or want to be something in their dreams.

Whatever their dreams are, they cannot run away from wanting to share, their lives with another. A person who will become his or her partner, which could understand and help to motivate and excellerate them toward that dreams.

For 57 years, I have been searching for something in life. I thought that I need love and care. May be I was right on these, but I still feel as if something is missing in between those two.

After always temporarily being alone, and doing things on my own, now i come to realize and clearly see what is missing in my life. The one that I was looking for. The missing link in my dream. Now I know that i need a real partner, a buddy. Someone who will always be by my side, through thick and skin of my life, just like a bone attached to my rib.

And when that someone become the missing bone that i am searching for, she will get all my love and care.


MBO

TENDER LOVING CARE.

In this world it is not easy to summarise everything especially concerning humans behaviors because each and everyone are individuals who has his liking and hate. But in humans journey of life, at one point or another, they will always seek the magic touch which they first encountered when they were born in this world and how they grew up in.

That is why, in their lives, they will always seek partners, to share and most important is the need to feel that tender, loving, and care again.

WHEN YOU'RE NOT THE PRIORITY

A friend once sent me an e mail, beautiful quotes with good background music. I wanted to post it up here, but i just dont know how to do it.

Anyway, one of the quote says that if you're not a priority in someone's heart, then you're nobody to that person. I guess, it is true. All that people wanted in life is a tender, loving and care from someone especially when that someone is the person that he or she loves most.

So, when you're not the priority in someone's life, just forget about the relationships, because it would lead to nothing but frustration and hurt.

SEX AND ROMANCE.

You can agree or disagree with me. Sex is an essential ingredient in marriage, although it might not be the utmost priority to some, because sex is easy in present days. You can almost get it anywhere.

To me, in between lovers, of course the ultimate aim is having sex, but it will always start with a little romance or foreplay. If you come in just like that, yes, it is sex too, but it look like you're having sex with a prostitute. The difference between lovers making love, and sex for hire love is the romance.

SPICES IN MARRIAGE.

Marriage life is not a bed of roses. The love that they emphasized  before marriage sometimes go by without them noticing it, because of the reality of living in the real world take existance from the dream that they had before marriage.

THE KEY TO A STABLE RELATIONSHIPS.

When we fall in love, we always pray that it would last our life time, but along the way, things get awfully wrong somewhere. The honey we tasted when we first fell in love, tasted like poison. The sweetness of being together sometimes turn sour. To some, they feel it is a fact of life, they just got tired of the relationship, may be the same routine everyday. They just want to have a change.

No, that is not necessary. Being together is not like wearing shoes or shirts. It involved feeling, and emotion. Therefore, it hurts to move out of the relationship.

The best way to a stable relationship is to have a lot of understanding and tolerance toward each other. This should go on both sides, if only practice by one party, it will never work.

IDIOT WILL ALWAYS HIDING BEHIND THEIR IDIOSITY.

Life is never perfect, and so are human beings, but it is important for everyone to become as perfect as they could as they walk along the journey of life. The question is always, how are we going to be perfect? It seems impossible, they always say that to err is human.

Yes, to become a perfect person, a 100% perfect is impossible, but at least we have to try to be as perfect as we could. The way to become that perfect person is to open up your mind. Learn things from others, learn things from experience and learn things to communication.

To closed our mind to things that we are comfortable in will not take us anywhere. It will only stop us from growing.

A wise person will always learn through their mistakes and learn through other's mistake. Generalising and logicalise a mistake is a work of an idiot who will never expand in their perspectives and knowledges.

MY FIRST LOVE.

I fell in love when I was still a little kid, just about 10 years old. It was my first love. They call it puppy love; but i don't care what it is called, all I knew that I love her so much.

She was  8 and a British, who came here because her father was assigned here in Malaysia. She was my neighbour. Nearly everyday, we met and just loved being together.

I learned a lot from her, especially the boy and girl things. She was the girl that I first kissed. I still remember that she loved to dance to the beatles songs.

Whenever she was away, i felt so lonely.

One day, it was time for her to go back home to Britain. Her father's duty was over.

I  remember that I told her to write to me. But as time went by, I waited and waited for her letter, but it never came.

Until today, I still remember her. The way she walked and the way she smiled. I missed her dearly, although I guess she don't remember me.

To her, I just want to say that I love you so much, and i will take it to my grave the fun memories that we had.

MY DREAM COME TRUE.

Throughout my life, i have been searching for someone who is not only beautiful but also kind and understanding. May be it's a bit fairy tale, but that is what I was searching for.

One time, i went to see a palmist who looked at my palm and said to me, one day the girl of your dream will come to you, she is not perfect but more or less just like you wished for. Since then, I have been waiting and waiting for that someone, until my hair grew greyish and like a fruit, I matured. I gave up the idea of finding that kind of beauty and waiting for the love of my life. The reading wasn't true. The dream girl will never show up.

But now, without me expecting it, I guess the girl of my dream finally arrived. She's not that perfect as predicted, but i love her so much, and I will love her forever. I love her so much.

MY FAVORITE SONG.

Songs are important in our life whether we like it or not. Good sound makes a song melodic to the ears, and pleasant to listen to. Birds chirping, the sound of raindrops, the sound of the wind, are sooting to the ears, but sometimes the sound of strong wind, and thunder could be scary.

Anyway, I want to download from youtube, a song that i love so much, because it reminded me of someone whom i loved so much when i was still a little boy. After 50 years, i still loved and missed her so much. The title of the song is Diary by Neil Sedaka.

SLIPPING INTO MY DREAM.

Last night, coming back from JB all alone, i had a very nice time to ponder a lot of things in life. Thinking about my life, and the way I'm heading into. It was a quiet drive back to Kajang on highway but still you're alone for at least 4 hours. It was so nice.

I managed to make some futile calls, but it was really futile. For the last time, i thought i could get a firm answer, but all i got was riddles after riddles.

I guess and learned, there is no use, relying on others. Not all man are humans. There are more devils and animal than humans. I guess, it is no use to fight, it just bring hurt to your heart, and make you become as wild as they are. They will obviously drag you into their worlds. I learned my lessons.

I guess, it is better for me to just slip into my own dreams. There I will find not only god but people who care.

WHEN I'M LONELY.

In this world, human beings are divided into several species or categories. But i guess most of them like to see other crumpled and fall to the ground. Other wise you won't see any killing, murders and wars on this sacred land. Those are things of the extreme, but anyway, all i know people just love to hurt each others. Some in the forms of sarcastic words, some physicals, and some just simply ignore and minding their own business without even care to stop to help.

May be it is not true to some, but this is how i feel.

At this moment , yes I'm a lonely person. A person who's looking for a company, a caring hand, and a shoulder to cry on. A place to belong. A place where i can put my heart to.

But then again, i think it is better if i could just live in my dream. A dream of a happy life, because the reality will never be as what i pictured it in my head.

For the whole of  my life, i've been searching for the heart of gold. I looked to the left, i looked to the right, I guess I will never find one.

So friends. just let me be among the stars of dreams, so i can finally rest peacefully in the hand of god.